Since I’ve started my M3 year (yes, the beast known as STEP 1 has been slayed….the score report will only tell if it’s actually dead…), I’ve collected many more interesting stories of my daily interactions at the hospital.
I want to chronicle them before I forget them. Some have been humorous and others have just plain sucked.
For those who are looking forward to medical school, the chronicles will provide you with a glimpse of what is ahead.
For those who have survived this year, perhaps you can provide insight.
I travel to another OR site via car after morning rounds. We’ve been told that it’s more important to attend morning rounds than be in the OR. We’ve also been told that it’s okay to be late to the OR if we were in lectures or morning rounds before and had to travel to another hospital area.
Until now, my OR experiences have been generally positive. I have also been told multiple times that I’m good at figuring out what needs to be done and getting things done.
This morning however…
I walk in a little late because I had to drive over and pick up my car before that. The patient is already sedated, but no one is scrubbed in yet.
I introduce myself to the scrub nurse. She’s great. I pull my gloves. I wait by the attending to say yellow again while he’s looking at a few things on the computer.
Someone from the anesthesia team calls me over.
“You were late. We already did the first time out and it’s crucial that everyone is here on time and announced. It’s unacceptable to be late.”
SIGH. This sucks since traveling from the main hospital to the other site is tricky when last minute changes happen so my car is at home and not in parking at the hospital….and they don’t have parking spots for us (so driving is a hassle and takes time).
“Ok. I apologize for being late. I had morning rounds and tried to get here as quickly as I could. I’ll do my best not to let it happen again.”
“Well, you can’t just come in and wander around. It’s absolutely important for you to arrive on time.”
Fuck you. I didn’t wander around. I simply didn’t introduce myself first to you because I’m not currently answering to anesthesiology. I went straight to the scrub nurse and then the attending. Did he think I was off just shooting he shit or something? Yea, clearly I was being lazy and trying to be late.
He spends a few more minutes driving that point home to me. I’m not sure if it’s because I’m not shaking/quivering with fear or showing no emotion. I’ve already apologized twice and I’m not one to lose emotional control even when I feel like shit internally because it doesn’t fix anything. (This interaction did make me feel like shit.) However, I think some people need to see that you are so upset about your mistakes (more than seeing that you’re trying to make things better).
I walk over to the attending and apologizes. He just shrugs and says, “You’re a student. You got here before anything happened. Morning rounds are more important.”
No matter where you go, I think there are some people who just need to feel control and important over other people. I understand that he needed to tell me this, but I also don’t think he needed to go on a long rant. Quite frankly, I don’t think it was his place either. It’s not his OR.
Also, I can’t take these interactions personally. Some people are just angry or looking for ways to be bossy.